What happened to me between freshman year and now? I was so excited about singing and had no problem singing in front of people and I was in regional and all-state choirs and I was the first chair soprano in the school choir. We went to jazz clinics as a choir and we each sang the solos we’d prepared and I was the only one that wasn’t critiqued because according to the clinician, I needed no improvement and there was nothing he could do for me. I was fifteen. What’s happened in the past three years that’s changed all that? I want to sing again. I want to be in a jazz choir. I want my voice to fly like a kite and be light as a cloud. I remember how that felt, and I miss it. I had a great gospel voice. I need to get that back.